Friday, July 17, 2009
I am tired today, tired in a good way. As in tired because I had a good days' work. Managed to cover much while studying with le! Once again I had one of those moments again! I alighted at commonwealth instead of queenstown. Any idea how silly I felt? hehe!
(: I'm hoping to go for sunday service even though there's Arrow tomorrow.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
I'm suppose to be studying, but I really need a break.
What am I doing in a junior college? Why am I taking on the A levels? Why did I not go over to the polytechnic?
Sometimes reality slaps me so hard in the face, it's really very hard to ignore. I asked Abba today, where's my 30fold?
I found out today that I have de-proved. I found out, yet again, what it's like to feel extremely disappointed. I found out today, that I've grown so used to failure. I found out today what it feels like to feel blessed for a friend, but yet envious of that friend. Today, I felt stupid and small. Most importantly, today I know how much my Abba loves me. Today I found out in the smallest ways how magnificent my God is. Today, I finally realise that I'm none of the above. Today, I've began to see, what it means to cast my eyes on Jesus and disregard my circumstances.
Life has been pretty harsh on me, but my Jesus has always been and will always be here for me.
There is no testimony without testings. No room for improvement without mistakes. Correction hurts, but is vital.
It's a heartfelt knowing that it's correction out of love, and I can run into His embrace when I cry.
You know what, I'm imperfect.
It does not matter.
A God who loves me just as I am, but too much to allow me to remain as I am. I finally understand what it means.
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
I'm ultimately bored to the bone.
LOA's the lastest buzz on what's happening in my life. It's official, I'm under "quarantine". Get this, I'm not allowed to go back to school till 8th of july. Usually I'd be over the moon thanking God for answered prayers, but this time I really wanted to take my exams IN THE EXAM VENUE. I guess all things work out for my good? I'm sure it will. I can't wait to hear about how the school's going to assess my promotional status. pfffffft. I think it'll be "great".
PFFFFT. PFFFFT. OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Something nice should be said right(: I LOVE MY CG LIKE MANY MANY MANY!!!!! They got my muffins and a card an a bottle/cup/mug/cup from starbucks. My love to Candice, Ahfa, Viv, Cass, Trix, Mr Hi!, YL, Max, Josh, Caleb, Sam, Bryan, BOBBIEEEEEE, chuting, KG, Grace, abi. THANK YOU JESUS FOR MY CG. (meet candice an hour ago to get my present).
Who will be the vessel of God's love for me without them.
Tonnes to do. Spirit is willing, oh, but the flesh is just too weak.
Change the sheets, study for my math exam which will most probably not count towards my promotional status, gg. Check out the price of Wii, change the sheets. Study do some more math.
DENISE HAS FINISHED HER EXAMS. I would say I've more or less finished mine. We're going out tomorrow, hoping B's coming along too.